Courtesy Frank Macabenta, our resident Drosophiliac. I mean, er...
"embargoed." Phenotype: Mutants display nuclear export defects.
"dissatisfaction" (dsf). Phenotype: Female flies display increased resistance to courtship.Tuesday, April 26, 2011
Friday, March 25, 2011
Nahmane
"Here, on the land, where you place your feet, you will also place your heart." - Tom Bissinger.
Sunday, February 27, 2011
Void(0)
Going to have my last cigarette from the pack.
Tooth still hurts.
Exam still on Thursday.
Ah.
Saturday, February 26, 2011
Ashes on Concrete
As I sit here, under the burden of wasted time, I cannot help but think about how things would be if that time was not wasted. If indeed, every moment was utilized to the fullest, as many cliches advise us so. Would I be more successful, happier or more wise? It's difficult to know since its an outcome I have not experienced.
Of all the things I complain about on a regular basis, motivation (or lack thereof) is pretty high up on the list. Lack of motivation results in more wasted time, and lesser dreams accomplished. At the end of the day, it is very demoralizing but it is also very much self-orchestrated. Like some sort of vile addiction that is difficult to break even though it leaves the body helpless and sometimes, lifeless.
I wonder if it is possible to change. If it is possible to somehow consciously always remember to be frugal with time. To organize my day so that everything I wish to do in that day actually gets done, and within a reasonable amount of time too. If what can be done in 6 hours is done in 11, it is rather pointless, right?
I am beginning to realize that this, perhaps, is the biggest challenge I will ever face. To do what is right, versus what is easy. Giving in to distraction is easy. Too easy. Perhaps it is time to test whether I have the backbone to pursue what I know in my heart to be right, and my reward will be that I actually get to find out whether there really is a light at the end of the tunnel, rather than wondering for the rest of my life.
If you read this, and know what I'm talking about, it'd be cool if you could share your experience. What do you do when you find yourself in this vicious cycle?
Of all the things I complain about on a regular basis, motivation (or lack thereof) is pretty high up on the list. Lack of motivation results in more wasted time, and lesser dreams accomplished. At the end of the day, it is very demoralizing but it is also very much self-orchestrated. Like some sort of vile addiction that is difficult to break even though it leaves the body helpless and sometimes, lifeless.
I wonder if it is possible to change. If it is possible to somehow consciously always remember to be frugal with time. To organize my day so that everything I wish to do in that day actually gets done, and within a reasonable amount of time too. If what can be done in 6 hours is done in 11, it is rather pointless, right?
I am beginning to realize that this, perhaps, is the biggest challenge I will ever face. To do what is right, versus what is easy. Giving in to distraction is easy. Too easy. Perhaps it is time to test whether I have the backbone to pursue what I know in my heart to be right, and my reward will be that I actually get to find out whether there really is a light at the end of the tunnel, rather than wondering for the rest of my life.
If you read this, and know what I'm talking about, it'd be cool if you could share your experience. What do you do when you find yourself in this vicious cycle?
Saturday, February 19, 2011
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